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I’m stressed again. Why i am so weak. Ugh. Ba’s going to lose his job. I see Ma with health problems. School’s giving me a headache. My weight is digusting. My personality is digusting. I hate myself. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong w me. Can’t cheer nobody up. I’m so useless. Dumber than the people in my class. Air head friends. Head hurts. Haunted by my ridiculous illusions. Sorry for being such a screwed up daughter. Pathetic
Ok. deep breath I feel better now.
I’m so sorry. I hate the fact that my blog has become so crappish. I guess just writing out my frustrartions is the only way I vent my stress.
A big sorry to dear followers out there (>_<” ) And thank you for bearing w my crappiness. );
Immature.
Data recovery cost minimum $500 and maximum $2000. Omg I’m so angry. I HATE HATE HATE that the stupid western digital external harddrive . I HATE THAT BRAND. I’ve lost 300G ++ of information ALL THANKS TO THEM. I didn’t even drop or bang or bring the hard drive one step out of the house. Omfg I’m sooooo angry. it’s barely been half a year and the fucking thing is SPOILT. I PISSED THE HELL OFF. WTF. (=_=) that’s THREE WHOLE YEARS WORTH of data and IT’S ALL LOST. thank you very much western digital. I’m NEVER EVER buying that brand ever again!!!!!! ARGH IM SO ANGRY !!!
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When fear seizes you, change what you are doing.
I’m scared. I’m really scared. Even I can’t believe I got pass the student council interview. The only next hurdle is next years campaign speech. It’s so scary. I’m alone in this and no one is going to help me. I’m going to bore everyone to death during the presentation day.
December is already coming to an end and I haven’t started working on it yet. It’s so terrifying. People think it’s not a great deal but they dont know how it’s like. They don’t care.
I never done a campaign speech before, yet alone talk to more than 40 people at a go, talking to a thousand plus people is no better than suicide.
Oh I should go kill myself to save my soul.
I wish I have had the confidence. I don’t have a good feeling about the round.
I pray.
Love, Nuki
FAERIE’S TOUCH-Photo taken while walking to gran’s hse ;)
Today is like some sports day :O 3h of badminton in the mornin frm 9-12am , later ran for an 55min at 4.50pm and 5min of 30push-pull exercises on the exercising machine thingies (lol!!) immediately went out again and did a 15min walk to gran’s hse. Chatted w my grandpa then walked back 15min ;D then saw the pretty trees n stopped for a picture. ;D Whoo hoo ^^ glad I exercised OTL ate so much today >< kfc snacker meal n later ice cream n worse ! Chocolate plus nutella DD; at least dinner is healthyyyyyy~ :D and nice! Mummy’s soup’s the best ;D
Tmr there training again ^^ ive been suppressing a nagging doubt that I might not get to play next year )); I mean today I got THROWN WITH THE JUNIORS. IM THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN’T GET THE HEAVY RACKET. AND, I’M THE ONLY ONE IN THE YR3 SCHOOL TEAM TRAINING IN THE OTHER GROUP. just lemme die already! Kick me outta the school team cuz IT DOESNT MATTER ANYWAY. I sux. (；´Д`A
I need to do hw and practice my jap DD; and fix my SONY Phone and laptop DDDD;
“I did the press junket yesterday, and we had Rupert at our table first, followed by Emma. Emma finished at the previous table before Rupert had finished with us, so she came over, stood behind him and rested her chin on his shoulder as she said ‘Hi!’. It was adorable. I think they’re all close, but Dan and Emma are more comfortable showing it.”
-From Emma who works for http://www.rupertgrint.net/
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![Picture taken at AFA in Sg Suntec city.
Cosplayer as a game character from Granado Espada ;DD
Looking like a goddess ;DD
Goodness this week is CRAZYYY!!!
I’ve been out for everyday of the entire week OTL whoo. It’s exhausting.
from last Sunday to Tuesday class chalet ;D
Summary: first day - kfc lunch.check in.nest.cards.games..dinner.more cards.dinner. Then nice neighbour brought plates piled high w rice and veg over. ;D hungry ppl were sated ;B ghost stories w Zi Xin,yuan theng(main storytellers) and peeps till 4am.sleep.
Day2: wake up at 15min to 9am. Swimming w jiemin,Jane,wanyi for abt 40min. Return to chalet. Finally breaksfast of nutella bread.UNO w Jie min,Jane, Ning Xuan and Bei Hua. Rina joins ;D. Bei Hua,Rina,Jane n me go rent bikes and cycle for abt and hr(?). Return to chalet. Some new faces(bryT n wxl.) . Lunch of packed noodles (tyvm Rina ;D ) and watch Tv. ——memory faulty——- evening time and we set up barbecue. Spams unglam photos(coming soon on fb ;DD ). Cooking time. Dinner w a spread of chicken wing,stingray,sausages,otahs,chips,marshmallows and so on. Hardly ate though not much appetite. ;O ended up just feeding ppl the noodles from lunch time ^^ ms cheng came ;O Corliss n yangsheng arrive ^^ aft barbecue it was games time ;D people who had to leave left. ;\ Wei quan had a weird forfeit (LOL) and the game was fun ^^ the strangers are really nice ;DD tyvm to the games department for organising fun games ;D then girls go to rm for power nap. End up all sleeping (LOL). OG woke up at abt 12to1. Both crawl downstairs and sit on the steps watching the owls pull a all-nighter and play cards. G says bye to O ;( watches the ppl play Cheat. sleepy and attempts to sleep on steps. In the end goes to sleep on the mattress on the floor. ——darkness(zzzz……)
Day3: wakes to a bright early morning and also to the job of being a human pillow for two individuals. People wake up and relieved from job. Pack bag. Breakfast of cupcake surprise. Time to go home ;( fprocession to mr(filmed and photo-ed. Also COMING SOON ON FB ;P ). Stop for class brunch and bought Each a cup.shared a McDonald pancake breakfast w wanxuan ;D took the train w ning xuan. Reached HOME.
Wednesday -> morning training went horribly. Nausea. Vomited and had to do light training. What a failure )));
Thursday-> woke up at 15min to 12. Quickly changed,bathed. Dash to meet Mel at bugis.shop for 5h. Bought identical school bags. And cute pencil case for mom ;D
(the best part below) Reached home. Fast and continuous jog for half an hour. Oats for dinner ;DDD
Fri-> badminton in morn. Late thanks to SOME PEOPLE who drove me to buona vista n ask me to take train to school. [=_=] had to speed run 4laps rd the school field. Then immediately footwork. Training was pretty tough. It’s getting more serious ;O which is kind if good. I guess.
Tuition.
Went to library w the goal to borrow at least some chinese books to force-feed myself w Chinese. Ended up wandering the entire library for about … 2 -3 h? ;O all the Chinese books were in fan2 ti2 zi4 ! Errrr…. Hello? Chinese illiterate here? (T_T ) nevertheless borrowed one chi bk to fulfill my mission. OTL borrow three other books: A Glass Princess (forgot title) , a werewolf genre(I am not going to read that boring thing) and BIKINI SEASON ;D one of the most awesome bk I’ve read this month. Same level as the new Percy Jackson bk ;D
Finished it on the day I borrowed the books ;P
Saturday -> @somerset w mom n sis -> shopping at centrepoint and orchard central. Went UNiQLO and bought two comfy leggings ;D
Went robinsons and shopped for some essential girl items(LOL) and later went borders where there was a book sale (lucky!♥) bought a book for $10 and two comic for $5 each ;O pretty cheap considering the comic are usually 8++ dollars ;OO the book is by Sheila roberts ;D a awesome author who wrote “Bikini season” ;D . Daddy fetched us home.
Dinner ;D
While everyone fell asleep I stayed up to chiong some tuition hw and watched Vampire Diaries for the second time. I have decided I am exceeding fond of the show ;D the main actress is pretty ;O then I watched I am Reaper (^_^; ) followed by the barclays golf thingy (lol) . I nv knew golf was THAT exciting ;P actually it’s pretty cool ;D
Sunday -> usual tuition. Then AFA!! Truly learnt to love costly. Curse my idiot-ness FOR NOT BRING A BETTER CAMERA DDDDDDDDDDDDD;I shall regret this forever DDD; and it’s the last AFA in Sg DDDD; omg the cosplayers are just beautiful.no. GORGEOUS. Bought a badge w the yellow haired guy from the yellow scarves from DURARARA and a NARUTO keychain. Really wanted those postcards of those arts. ;\ but didn’t buy them in the end. ;( took pics of figurines and cosplayers ;D then went to watch professional cosplayers AIRA (as black rock shooter) and KANAME ( a guys from BRS too). Gosh they are damn cute ;D AIRA’s cosplay photo of Mio(frm K-ON!) is just adorable. Totally just love KANAME’s CLOUD cosplay. It’s as if he stepped out of the game itself XDD wanna see his ICHIGO KUROSAKI one XD I would be able to die peacefully after that X3. The thing was held like a stage interview and it was super cool ;D and both cosplayers talked more abt themselves and answered q’s frm the public ;D and later they did some examples of nice poses and poses to avoid(though they still looked damn cute in the wrong poses XD) aft that the interview ended. It was pretty late so I just went down to the level below to take more pictures of the cosplayers. Really love the MISA frm DEATHNOTE and LUKA from . They were really pretty XD
Met Alicia ;D she was complying BRS too !!! Sadly she was packing up and rdy to go home TT gosh I wish I saw her in action. She’ll definitely look stunning! XDDD saw Felicia and novia ;DD Felicia look extremely cute in the maid-bunny outfit XDD suits her personality very well and the look was (Y)! XDD
And the most shocking of all ! GUESS WHO I SAW ! Andy-San! ;OO goodness what was he doing there!! ;OO haven’t seen him for a long while ;O but was so in shock I didn’t get to say hi and he disappeared into the crowd w his friends (^^; ) .
Reached home and ate out w family. Reached home and read the MAYA programming book I borrowed ;D then, (one of the best parts!! )
TUMBLR TUMBLR TUMBLR HEAVEN ;D
And then, we finally catch up to the present Now. ^^
Whoo hoo. I must have wrote a composition! (0-0”)
crosses fingers and prays there’s no problem uploading the composition
Oh ya. within another few hours of so I’ll be dragging myself to school for another round of hell in the sports hall so wish me luck. OTL
picks up Umbridge’s special quill and writes I MUST NOT BE LATE.](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lbvsdhW1RL1qbfxaoo1_500.jpg)
Picture taken at AFA in Sg Suntec city. Cosplayer as a game character from Granado Espada ;DD Looking like a goddess ;DD
Goodness this week is CRAZYYY!!!
I’ve been out for everyday of the entire week OTL whoo. It’s exhausting.
from last Sunday to Tuesday class chalet ;D
Summary: first day - kfc lunch.check in.nest.cards.games..dinner.more cards.dinner. Then nice neighbour brought plates piled high w rice and veg over. ;D hungry ppl were sated ;B ghost stories w Zi Xin,yuan theng(main storytellers) and peeps till 4am.sleep.
Day2: wake up at 15min to 9am. Swimming w jiemin,Jane,wanyi for abt 40min. Return to chalet. Finally breaksfast of nutella bread.UNO w Jie min,Jane, Ning Xuan and Bei Hua. Rina joins ;D. Bei Hua,Rina,Jane n me go rent bikes and cycle for abt and hr(?). Return to chalet. Some new faces(bryT n wxl.) . Lunch of packed noodles (tyvm Rina ;D ) and watch Tv. ——memory faulty——- evening time and we set up barbecue. Spams unglam photos(coming soon on fb ;DD ). Cooking time. Dinner w a spread of chicken wing,stingray,sausages,otahs,chips,marshmallows and so on. Hardly ate though not much appetite. ;O ended up just feeding ppl the noodles from lunch time ^^ ms cheng came ;O Corliss n yangsheng arrive ^^ aft barbecue it was games time ;D people who had to leave left. ;\ Wei quan had a weird forfeit (LOL) and the game was fun ^^ the strangers are really nice ;DD tyvm to the games department for organising fun games ;D then girls go to rm for power nap. End up all sleeping (LOL). OG woke up at abt 12to1. Both crawl downstairs and sit on the steps watching the owls pull a all-nighter and play cards. G says bye to O ;( watches the ppl play Cheat. sleepy and attempts to sleep on steps. In the end goes to sleep on the mattress on the floor. ——darkness(zzzz……)
Day3: wakes to a bright early morning and also to the job of being a human pillow for two individuals. People wake up and relieved from job. Pack bag. Breakfast of cupcake surprise. Time to go home ;( fprocession to mr(filmed and photo-ed. Also COMING SOON ON FB ;P ). Stop for class brunch and bought Each a cup.shared a McDonald pancake breakfast w wanxuan ;D took the train w ning xuan. Reached HOME.
Wednesday -> morning training went horribly. Nausea. Vomited and had to do light training. What a failure )));
Thursday-> woke up at 15min to 12. Quickly changed,bathed. Dash to meet Mel at bugis.shop for 5h. Bought identical school bags. And cute pencil case for mom ;D (the best part below) Reached home. Fast and continuous jog for half an hour. Oats for dinner ;DDD
Fri-> badminton in morn. Late thanks to SOME PEOPLE who drove me to buona vista n ask me to take train to school. [=_=] had to speed run 4laps rd the school field. Then immediately footwork. Training was pretty tough. It’s getting more serious ;O which is kind if good. I guess. Tuition. Went to library w the goal to borrow at least some chinese books to force-feed myself w Chinese. Ended up wandering the entire library for about … 2 -3 h? ;O all the Chinese books were in fan2 ti2 zi4 ! Errrr…. Hello? Chinese illiterate here? (T_T ) nevertheless borrowed one chi bk to fulfill my mission. OTL borrow three other books: A Glass Princess (forgot title) , a werewolf genre(I am not going to read that boring thing) and BIKINI SEASON ;D one of the most awesome bk I’ve read this month. Same level as the new Percy Jackson bk ;D Finished it on the day I borrowed the books ;P
Saturday -> @somerset w mom n sis -> shopping at centrepoint and orchard central. Went UNiQLO and bought two comfy leggings ;D Went robinsons and shopped for some essential girl items(LOL) and later went borders where there was a book sale (lucky!♥) bought a book for $10 and two comic for $5 each ;O pretty cheap considering the comic are usually 8++ dollars ;OO the book is by Sheila roberts ;D a awesome author who wrote “Bikini season” ;D . Daddy fetched us home. Dinner ;D While everyone fell asleep I stayed up to chiong some tuition hw and watched Vampire Diaries for the second time. I have decided I am exceeding fond of the show ;D the main actress is pretty ;O then I watched I am Reaper (^_^; ) followed by the barclays golf thingy (lol) . I nv knew golf was THAT exciting ;P actually it’s pretty cool ;D
Sunday -> usual tuition. Then AFA!! Truly learnt to love costly. Curse my idiot-ness FOR NOT BRING A BETTER CAMERA DDDDDDDDDDDDD;I shall regret this forever DDD; and it’s the last AFA in Sg DDDD; omg the cosplayers are just beautiful.no. GORGEOUS. Bought a badge w the yellow haired guy from the yellow scarves from DURARARA and a NARUTO keychain. Really wanted those postcards of those arts. ;\ but didn’t buy them in the end. ;( took pics of figurines and cosplayers ;D then went to watch professional cosplayers AIRA (as black rock shooter) and KANAME ( a guys from BRS too). Gosh they are damn cute ;D AIRA’s cosplay photo of Mio(frm K-ON!) is just adorable. Totally just love KANAME’s CLOUD cosplay. It’s as if he stepped out of the game itself XDD wanna see his ICHIGO KUROSAKI one XD I would be able to die peacefully after that X3. The thing was held like a stage interview and it was super cool ;D and both cosplayers talked more abt themselves and answered q’s frm the public ;D and later they did some examples of nice poses and poses to avoid(though they still looked damn cute in the wrong poses XD) aft that the interview ended. It was pretty late so I just went down to the level below to take more pictures of the cosplayers. Really love the MISA frm DEATHNOTE and LUKA from . They were really pretty XD Met Alicia ;D she was complying BRS too !!! Sadly she was packing up and rdy to go home TT gosh I wish I saw her in action. She’ll definitely look stunning! XDDD saw Felicia and novia ;DD Felicia look extremely cute in the maid-bunny outfit XDD suits her personality very well and the look was (Y)! XDD And the most shocking of all ! GUESS WHO I SAW ! Andy-San! ;OO goodness what was he doing there!! ;OO haven’t seen him for a long while ;O but was so in shock I didn’t get to say hi and he disappeared into the crowd w his friends (^^; ) . Reached home and ate out w family. Reached home and read the MAYA programming book I borrowed ;D then, (one of the best parts!! )
TUMBLR TUMBLR TUMBLR HEAVEN ;D
And then, we finally catch up to the present Now. ^^
Whoo hoo. I must have wrote a composition! (0-0”) crosses fingers and prays there’s no problem uploading the composition
Oh ya. within another few hours of so I’ll be dragging myself to school for another round of hell in the sports hall so wish me luck. OTL
picks up Umbridge’s special quill and writes I MUST NOT BE LATE.
I wish I can rewrite the past that made me a bitter person
but I can’t because, this is the reality that I existed on
(Source: bookmania)
I’m just a Girl.
I always have bad hair days. A pimple appears at the wrong times. I say stupid things and then I regret them. I exercise like crazy, yet I never slim down. I go on diets, but they always seem to start tomorrow. I talk to guys normally, yet I can never talk to Him. I treat Him coldly and we hardly talk but deep down I wish we could at least be friends. I love all my girlfriends for they make me feel complete but I am insecure that one day I may lose them to others. My bestie has a lot of close guy friends and I wonder if they are even closer to her than I am. I hate myself for doubting her. He likes me. But I can’t return the feelings that I don’t have. My heart died with the first. I would rather push him aside before i start toying with him. I chase stars and wish I were as pretty and confident. I smile a lot but it rarely reaches my eyes. I force myself to be positive, but night falls and I am clouded with doubts. I try to be respectful and communicate with my parents, but they call that talking back. I study like crazy for exams, but I never do as well as others. I try to lead, but no one follows. I am too skeptical. I am too sarcastic. I too naive.
For, I am just a girl. ;(
Marshmallow Tree
Oooo! Looks damn cute. Too bad I’m not a fan of foamy tasting sweets ;\
(Source: foodfuckery, via thehoneybees-deactivated2010121)
Randoming in the mrt aft physics paper
I have to say that the couple in front of me is kinda ridiculous -.- a guy in uniform and a girl in home clothes acting all chummy -.- ridddiiicccuuullooouuusss. Goodness. The girl is whining and complaining like some pig to the guy(-- “). At least it isn’t too extreme -- I do appreciate it if they could keep their fingers off each other’s hands. Oh they finally left. 11.05pm.
5more minutes to 11:11. Shall go surf the net to see what this means.
11:06 Internet is slow.
11:08. Still waiting
11:09 .
11.11. To make a wish.
Today was …….
Omg my life suxs D; at least parents made up ;)) that’s one headache off my mind ;DD oh phew.
Today was normal. Cept that teachers keep scolding 3A for being …. Quiet? ;o strange though I don’t find anything different :|
Dance proj by fri. CID by fri D; we’re done for, oh we are done for D: at least we’re all trying our best. sad smile hope tmr will be Better ); well. As “better” as extra physics lessons can be :\
For the record : TODAY’S EPIC MOMENTS Ranking first and unrivaled ! -> Joyce unintentionally(?) grabbing Aym’s hand. ;)
Second -> “Good afternoon GIRLS”, (mrs lee, 14 September 2010)
Third -> the corby stalker a.k.a Morgan (--) oh puh-leeze? Its like damned hell obvious he was FOLLOWING. WTF. Creep. He purposely walked snail pace in hope that corby n I would catch up. (obvious corby n I went slow). He continued on the overhead bridge thinking we were walking to jp and when he realized corby n me were waiting for the bus w suga,marly and Rina, he turn around and practically dashed to the bus stop (--“) oh my do SNAILS RUN FAST. the most epic. At JE mrt he didn’t get off the train to cross over to his train(middle track) instead he took the train right all the way w corby. Oh wow. I have a few words to say to this: BEAT IT SUCKER BECAUSE YOU ARE + (0-0 ) piss people right off. Rah.
Anyways. Hw is bio eoy + maths notes + geo + bio sec C . Gtg do hw now. Cya. Lurve, tanuki.
I watch Criminal Minds and Forensic Files to remind myself that its okay to not be so trusting of people.
by: scarsofanangel
(Source: bookmania)
